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“Hobbies are self-nurturing activities. In loving ourselves-that is, nuturing ourselves for the purpose of spiritual growth” ~THE ROAD LESS TRAVELED, M. Scott Peck, M.D.
This story starts a couple a years back, when I met my soon to be ex-husband. It was the closest thing to love at first sight that I ever experienced. We met online and talked on the phone all day, every day. We seemed to have so much in common it was uncanny. When we finally did meet it was like we’d known eachother for years, literally. He was proclaiming his love by the end of the night (first red flag, stupid me). It’s alarmingly easy for quick relationships to happen online, because you find out so much about eachother prior to meeting that you think you’ve got it all figured out. I’m sure most of you know someone who’s played the game. I didn’t learn enough though. I sure as hell didn’t learn how much pain, confusion, loneliness, anger, guilt, suffering, and pure torture I would endure to be married and in love with an alcoholic. I didn’t even know what that the hell alcoholic meant. Weren’t all my friends alcoholics anyway? The answer was no, they were not, they were not the “leave a path of destruction everywhere you go” type of alcoholics. Well, maybe some where, but I didn’t marry them.
In the beginning of our relationship I didn’t do much crafting at all. I was way too busy doing nothing with my boyfriend to have time to make stuff. Geesh!! It wasn’t until I lost my job of 6 years, that the true co-dependant nature of our relationship started to chip at my sense of self. We, we, we, or him, him, him. That was all. My friend saw it from miles away and warned me over and over, but I was too stubborn, and too in love. I did however; feel the slightest twinge of what, heartburn maybe, gas? It was something, something that led to my initial and still beloved barretts. I made them like my life depended on it. I started with big, flowery, pin-up girl style , but then they became more and more elaborate. In my mind I had invented the concept of Victorian hair art. This absolutly obsessed me for days, and was able to take me away from “him”, into my own mind that was exploding with styles that would bring the fashion world to its’ knees.
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